Tag Archive | love

Never

Daddy never liked me

And i was always least likely

To be a problem child

So don’t mind me

My problems now

are so timely

Lost in the wild

But you’ll never find me

I lay low

Stay close to the ground

Like coffee

And I may never

become wifey

Or change my

name to mommy

But maybe

I serve a goal

Beyond the cervical

maybe it’s unfathomable

But I’m still magical

© Jocsalyn Janay, 2018

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Dear diary

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Dear diary

I’m sorry

For the burdens that

weigh heavy on your neck

I bet you have secrets

of your own

That you’d like to

get off your chest

But this an emergency

This is not a test

I’m palpitating, exasperated

And I can’t catch my breath

My heart is broken into pieces

And I can’t fix what’s left

The fault is mine. I wish to Jesus

That I didn’t die this death

©Jocsalyn Janay, 2018

Old Me

Look at all these birds I’m killing
throwing rocks at glass ceilings
Forget the pain i have no feelings
These scars are way too old for healing
and I guess it’s death to the old me
She won’t rest well
No R.I.P.
I can hear her wail
She won’t go quietly
not without a fight
I’m killing her silently
and kissing her goodnight

©Jocsalyn Janay 2018

A Supreme Bright Other

WARNING: The following film contains scenes of drug use. Viewer discretion is advised.

Last Tuesday Jhené Aiko released her third and final installment of her 3-part project, M.A.P. (movie, album, and poetry book). 2fish (a poetry book) has been highly anticipated since she released a surprise album Trip, on September 22nd. She released a short film by the same name just two days before.

Trip (the movie) follows the life of a young woman named Penny as she tries to navigate through life after losing her brother. She reluctantly takes a road trip with a stranger, and experiments with different types of drugs. While on the trip, Penny begins to accept the fact that her brother has passed and finds her way back to herself. The movie is emotional and captivating, containing original poetry written by Jhené Aiko.

Trip (the album) closely mirrors the movie, as Jhené processes her own feelings and emotions in dealing with the loss of her brother in real life. The 2 disc album serves somewhat as an audio diary as she expresses the pain of losing her brother. The album covers feelings of suicide, love, drug use, and hope.

I’ve been listening to Jhené Aiko’s music since her first single, “Dog” on B2K’s Pandemonium album, so I’m extremely proud of her. Being able to pull off a short film, an album, and book on top of touring is absolutely incredible and proof of Jhené Aiko‘s dedication to her art. She is in every sense a “supreme, bright other.” She also announced via twitter that she has been sober since the release of the album, so big kudos to her. I hope that she continues to find success and every good thing that comes along with it in the new year, and the years to come.

-xoxo

 

 

Escapism

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You took my heart captive

And demanded a ransom

And I’ve been paying the price

Year after year

I’ve been praying to Christ

Hoping that He hears

I’m just saying my life

Is nothing but these tears

Bottled up inside

Toast to me

Cheers

And they’re spilling now

Drowning everything

But there’s a way out

Promise everything

Is ok now

©Jocsalyn Janay 2017

Chrysalis

Sigh of relief

mixed with a little bit of

sadness

Take a good girl

And try to turn her

into a savage

I know what I want

And I know that I

Could never have it

Heart’s still racing

Pounding by the second

And time’s a wasting

Been here all my life

And I’m tired of waiting

For the prefect guy

To come and save me

I’m drowning in this tide

©Jocsalyn Janay, 2017

Timeline

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Timeless as a rose
The story of you and I
It was as if time
itself had froze
The moment
you caught my eye
Oh cliché I know
But time and space
Don’t lie
You’ve been running
through my mind
I’ve been trying to
jog your memory
Chasing that silver lining
Hoping that you’d
remember me

©Jocsalyn Janay 2017