Tag Archive | heartbreak

If I could

If I could mend your heart

Put it back together again

Heal your wounds

Make it like nothing ever happened

Touch your soul

I know that it’s been broken

Fix it

Make you whole again

If I could

I would

©Jocsalyn Janay, 2018

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Giver

I’m a giver

You’re a taker

I remember

When

you were

A receiver

With an open heart

And

now it’s closed

Like it was after hours

And I suppose

I’m the one to blame

I was cold

So I lit the flame

I should’ve known

It would end this way

©Jocsalyn Janay 2018

Dear diary

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Dear diary

I’m sorry

For the burdens that

weigh heavy on your neck

I bet you have secrets

of your own

That you’d like to

get off your chest

But this an emergency

This is not a test

I’m palpitating, exasperated

And I can’t catch my breath

My heart is broken into pieces

And I can’t fix what’s left

The fault is mine. I wish to Jesus

That I didn’t die this death

©Jocsalyn Janay, 2018

Pretty Little Liar

“Oh what a tangled web we weave…when we first practice to deceive”

Anyone who’s ever watched Pretty Little Liars, knows that Alison, the main character isn’t just a liar. She’s charming, she’s deceitful, and she’s a master manipulator. Alison lies to her friends, then gets them to lie for her. When her friends aren’t willing to lie for her, she resorts to whatever tactics she deems necessary to get what she wants. I could go on and on about Alison, but this blog isn’t about her. It’s about another pretty little liar (and no, it’s not Aria, Spencer, Hannah, or Emily). This blog is about Delilah.
“Who’s Delilah?” I’m glad you asked. Delilah may as well have been the Old Testament version of Alison. Delilah’s story begins in Judges 16, when she starts dating Samson. Samson was blessed with supernatural strength. The source of his strength was in his hair, which had never been cut since the day he was born. Samson was in love with Delilah, but her feelings weren’t mutual. So when the rulers of the Philistines came to her and offered her money to find the out the secret to his strength so that they can “tie him up and subdue him,” she was all for it. At first, Delilah doesn’t even try to beat around the bush with Samson. She literally says to him, “Tell me the secret to  your great strength and how you can be tied up and subdued.” (Judges 16:6 NIV) Samson, determined to keep his secret, lies to her. He says, “If anyone ties me with seven fresh bowstrings that have not been dried, I’ll become as weak as any other man.” Delilah hides the Philistines in her room, ties him up, then calls to him, “The Philistines are upon you!” Samson breaks loose. Delilah, seeing that her boyfriend is alive and well, accuses him of making a fool of her. Delilah tries to detain her boyfriend two more times unsuccessfully. She starts playing on his emotions and the fact that he loves her. Verse 16 says, “With such nagging she prodded him day after day until he was tired to death.” Samson finally gave in to her manipulation and told his secret. Delilah had Samson’s hair shaved while he slept in her lap and the Philistines captured him. Samson went against his better judgement and trusted Delilah, which ultimately led to his own demise.
How often do we find ourselves in situations similar to Samson and Delilah’s? Sometimes we’re so blinded by love to the point where we don’t use our heads and other times we’re manipulating others to get what we want. Maybe there’s a guy you know who really likes you. He’s always buying you gifts; if you’re not interested, don’t pretend that you are. That too, is a lie.

Marz Ferrer

I first heard the voice of Marz Ferrer featured on Andy Mineo’s “Never Land”. Her voice was so intriguing  that I had to hear more from her. I was overjoyed to find her EP, Grave Clothes and Wedding Garments. Not only does Marz have an amazing voice, but  she is also an incredible songwriter. She was introduced to songwriting as a young girl, when she began playing piano. You could say that music is in her genes. She was born to a father who was part of a Doo Wop group and a mother who sang backup for several Christian music artists. Marz Ferrer’s style is very unique, as she is an alternative artist with a hip-hop inspired sound. She’s covered Kanye West’s “Amazing” as well as Drake’s “Hotline Bling”.  Marz has been featured in songs by Thi’sl, Beautiful Eulogy, Da’ T.R.U.T.H. and  many others. Last year, MTV’s Finding Carter featured two songs from her latest EP, Blur. Her voice welcomes listeners to travel  with her as she touches on topics such as love, heartache, and faith. She is definitely one artist that I can listen to all day for hours and hours. With her “poetically transparent” writing, she hopes to create music that connects with her listeners, and point to something more than self. She seeks to bring hope to a world which lacks sincerity and is starving for authenticity. You can follow Marz on twitter @MarzFerrer