Otherworldly and ethereal

Once the pain subsides

There’s nothing left to feel 

Waking up in this dismal daze

Fight the fog

subdue the haze

I guess its true

I’ve seen brighter days


nothing this surreal

Swallow my emotions

Life’s a happy meal

©Jocsalyn Janay 2018



I’m a giver

You’re a taker

I remember


you were

A receiver

With an open heart


now it’s closed

Like it was after hours

And I suppose

I’m the one to blame

I was cold

So I lit the flame

I should’ve known

It would end this way

©Jocsalyn Janay 2018


Daddy never liked me

And i was always least likely

To be a problem child

So don’t mind me

My problems now

are so timely

Lost in the wild

But you’ll never find me

I lay low

Stay close to the ground

Like coffee

And I may never

become wifey

Or change my

name to mommy

But maybe

I serve a goal

Beyond the cervical

maybe it’s unfathomable

But I’m still magical

© Jocsalyn Janay, 2018

Average Black Girl

So I just came across this video on Facebook of Ernestine Johnson  reciting this poem on the Arsenio Hall show. The poem is so relevant and also relative as it highlights the backhanded compliment that so many black girls (myself included) have received. Being told by someone that you “talk white” (what is that anyway?) or that you’re not the average black girl only reinforces the stigma that black girls are somehow less than. It falls right in line with being told that you are pretty for a black girl. Ernestine so eloquently put into words how many girls feel. I can’t wait to see more of Ernestine’s work in the future.

Dear diary


Dear diary

I’m sorry

For the burdens that

weigh heavy on your neck

I bet you have secrets

of your own

That you’d like to

get off your chest

But this an emergency

This is not a test

I’m palpitating, exasperated

And I can’t catch my breath

My heart is broken into pieces

And I can’t fix what’s left

The fault is mine. I wish to Jesus

That I didn’t die this death

©Jocsalyn Janay, 2018

Going for Gold

I just watched Aly Raisman read her victim impact statement at Larry Nassar’s sentence hearing, and it was absolutely amazing. She spoke with so much grace and elegance. She was poised and fierce, and made her point very clear that she is not a victim, but a survivor. She also spoke about how so many girls were brushed aside when they came forward about their experiences with the doctor. I find that to be absolutely appalling. The fact that organizations such as the U.S.A. Gymnastics and U.S. Olympic Committee enabled this monster to continue practicing while dismissing the countless allegations against him makes me sick to my stomach. These organizations proved that they were only concerned about their athletes winning. They did not value these girls as human beings at all. It’s so heartbreaking to know that while I was watching these girls compete for medals, they were being molested and abused.

Aly and the other girls are not just winners at the Olympics, but they were winners in the courtroom. Their voices were heard loud and clear, and I’m so proud of them. I hope that they continue to heal and go on to live healthy lives.